My first principle

Never get into a relationship that could hurt the other party.

Merry Christmas!!!

HOT

The temperature for today is 35 - 38. Hot like anything...............MADNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Funny thing

I was asked twice in a week, by two totally different person to involve myself into a relationship, which I am yet to be sure whether myself is ready. And I am not sure whether has one got to be prepared to become one's girlfriend or is it a spontaneous reaction and just requires adaptation?
In fact, the main reason of my refusal was obvious - dislike the physical contact. But be careful not to interpret in another diverted direction, I only dislike physical contact with the pepople I don't feel comfortable with, and that includes both sexes.

Feelings...

Presence really make a very big difference. Being able to be together with loved ones give the most wonderful feeling, and is the very few wishes that I would ask for. They are so real, so parental, so loving, so understanding, so caring, so protective, and not to forget, so cute, so funny and so deary. Have already, and will miss them so much. Thanks for everything and I love you.

Please forgive me for being so careless, forgetting to give you the birthday card that I have bought few weeks ago, for not wishing you early birthday because I knew I would have caused more tears bursting if I said it out. I will call you to wish on the day itself. I love you daddy.

Definition of a Good friend

What is it? Is there a clear distinction between a good friend and a boy friend? I used to think there is, and still believe that there is. But does everyone knows how to distinguish between the two?

How close is not too close? How intimate is not too intimate? Would you be uncomfortable if a good friend is being too nice to you? Would you feel intimidated by a good friend being too concern about you? Would you be irritated by a good friend's intermittent calls and care?

If I were to answer all those questions, I would say NO. And it is damn obvious that I think NO.

me, me and me

* Fun to be with
* Secretive
* Difficult to fathom and to be understood
* Quiet unless excited or tensed
* Takes pride in oneself
* Has reputation
* Easily consoled
* Honest
* Concern about people's feelings
* Tactful
* Friendly
* Approachable
* Very emotional
* Temperamental and unpredictable
* Moody and easily hurt
* Witty and sarky
* Sentimental
* Not revengeful
* Forgiving but never forgets
* Dislike nonsensical and unnecessary things
* Guides others physically and mentally
* Sensitive and forms impressions carefully
* Caring and loving
* Treats others equally
* Strong sense of sympathy
* Wary and sharp
* Judge people through observations
* Hardworking

In bold = so true = so me
In red = so damn me

Excited, Happy, Confused

Excited: Get to meet papa and mama on monday.
Happy: May be able to work for summer scholarship with Mariah, Alan Trousan's research group.
Confused: Irritated, annoyed and intimidated by a goodfriend's concern.

Confessions

Yes, I admit that I was angry and hurt. I haven't had those annoying feelings for a very long time and all of a sudden it striked me, in the mid of the most enjoyable moments with everyone. None of them were sober enough to realize my unrevealed feelings except him. I know he was just joking, wanting to crack something funny for people to laugh at. But I found that nothing humorous or exciting to joke about, especially when I am beginning to think that he is someone reliable whom I could trust. If I am not mistaken, he knew perfectly well that I would not be happy if he went a little bit further, and yet he did. He may have been a little tipsy, but I still believe that he was sober enough to know what he was talking about.

I just don't believe what's there to be fussed about, on something which is so normal and nothing to be fussed about. Am I a little too sensitive? Or isit guys are usually less senstitive than they should be, thereby taking it for granted to give a statement that they thought normal but which could have hurt other people's feelings. Some people are just so straight forward, and never think of other people's feelings, but I also have came across with some guys with a total opposite attitude. So, there is no reason for being so unthoughtful.

YOU know very well that I dislike having to mistrust people. Once I put a trust on you, but it's been doubted, that's gonna be it. Prolly my personality is not well understood.

At the end, I should be forgiving and forgetful. Then shall I be happy and cheerful again. Yesterday was half moon and apparently the pro-moody period of the month. Give me some time to digest it first.

Sticky date pudding

I recommend sticky date pudding for desert - yUm.......Yesterday after work, came back to clayton, Channy fetched me from home and we headed to Coles to purchase our dinner groceries. We both, felt like cooking pasta and thus, our main course for the night was delicious and yummy chicken mushroom pasta - with lots of parmesen cheese............yum...................
Eating dinner while watching tele is the most sensational thing to do, and in addition to a delicious delicacy - sticky date pudding for desert, perfect.

Is somethin' wrong with me?

I don't know. I really don't know. People i just trying to be nice to me, but I think it is far more than what a friend should do for a friend whom he just knew for not more than a month. Even though we have similar birthdays, similar star signs, approx. similar time of birth, similar thinking (sometimes), doesn't mean we should be so close. No, ought not to be so close. But he is treating me so well that I find it intimidating. He may speculate me as his sister (I really hope so) and therefore behaving like a big bro looking after a little cute sister like me. I really dislike the way he looks at me and preparing food for me and buying presents for me. No doubt I always feel happy and excited when receiving presents, but I OUGHT to stop him from doing that.......yet how? It is definitely very sweet to have someone taking care of me so nice and wonderful, but he is not the someone I am looking for. NO.