Confessions

Yes, I admit that I was angry and hurt. I haven't had those annoying feelings for a very long time and all of a sudden it striked me, in the mid of the most enjoyable moments with everyone. None of them were sober enough to realize my unrevealed feelings except him. I know he was just joking, wanting to crack something funny for people to laugh at. But I found that nothing humorous or exciting to joke about, especially when I am beginning to think that he is someone reliable whom I could trust. If I am not mistaken, he knew perfectly well that I would not be happy if he went a little bit further, and yet he did. He may have been a little tipsy, but I still believe that he was sober enough to know what he was talking about.

I just don't believe what's there to be fussed about, on something which is so normal and nothing to be fussed about. Am I a little too sensitive? Or isit guys are usually less senstitive than they should be, thereby taking it for granted to give a statement that they thought normal but which could have hurt other people's feelings. Some people are just so straight forward, and never think of other people's feelings, but I also have came across with some guys with a total opposite attitude. So, there is no reason for being so unthoughtful.

YOU know very well that I dislike having to mistrust people. Once I put a trust on you, but it's been doubted, that's gonna be it. Prolly my personality is not well understood.

At the end, I should be forgiving and forgetful. Then shall I be happy and cheerful again. Yesterday was half moon and apparently the pro-moody period of the month. Give me some time to digest it first.

Sticky date pudding

I recommend sticky date pudding for desert - yUm.......Yesterday after work, came back to clayton, Channy fetched me from home and we headed to Coles to purchase our dinner groceries. We both, felt like cooking pasta and thus, our main course for the night was delicious and yummy chicken mushroom pasta - with lots of parmesen cheese............yum...................
Eating dinner while watching tele is the most sensational thing to do, and in addition to a delicious delicacy - sticky date pudding for desert, perfect.

Is somethin' wrong with me?

I don't know. I really don't know. People i just trying to be nice to me, but I think it is far more than what a friend should do for a friend whom he just knew for not more than a month. Even though we have similar birthdays, similar star signs, approx. similar time of birth, similar thinking (sometimes), doesn't mean we should be so close. No, ought not to be so close. But he is treating me so well that I find it intimidating. He may speculate me as his sister (I really hope so) and therefore behaving like a big bro looking after a little cute sister like me. I really dislike the way he looks at me and preparing food for me and buying presents for me. No doubt I always feel happy and excited when receiving presents, but I OUGHT to stop him from doing that.......yet how? It is definitely very sweet to have someone taking care of me so nice and wonderful, but he is not the someone I am looking for. NO.