Pain pain go away...

I HAVE PUS IN MY ARM
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My T-cells are fightin' the vaccinia virus now....and that makes me feel sick and tired and uncomfy.

I feel sleepy.......coz had a very little sleep weekend........

I feel Fortunate and Lucky.

I suddenly realized,
that I should be satisfied and contented with,
who I am,
who I have,
who I belong to,
where I am staying,
what I possess,
what I am doing,
how I grew up,
how I was then and now.

After friday night - saturday morning,
I saw,
he doesn't have anyone to go to,
he doesn't feel belong to anywhere,
he doesn't have any belongings,
he doesn't have anything to use,
he has to work hard to pay school fees,
he has to take care of himself and earn his living,
he doesn't really know how to...

Deep down he is,
confused, sad and lost.

So I really think,
that I am lucky.

Vaccinia Virus

I had my vaccinia immunisation yesterday,
Wasn't painful BUT,
The effect will appear next week WHEN,
The pus and inflammation is observed on my arm WHICH,
Means that my arm will be swollen AND,
The worse of all will be the SCAR will be on my arm FOREVER......

I am devastated and sad and unhappy.

Don't want that stupid scar... :(

Sleepy piG Again....

Slept late, coz
Came home late, coz
Was in the city, coz
Went for dinner, coz
He wanna talk, coz
He was confused, coz
He wanted to look for a job, coz
He is planning his future, coz
He has to.

Had a good relaxing night.

Change of weather, change of mood

The weather changed yesterday...
And so I had a slight change in mood yesterday...
He said I am upset bout something...
I think he was right that I was extra quiet...
He asked me what was upsetting me...
But I couldn't reply...

Coz I didn't know what I was upset about.

Could it be I was homesick?
Could it be I was thinking too much rubbish?
Could it be I was being emo?
Could it be I was in my couldn't be bothered mood?

I just wanted to be lazy
I just wanted to be passive
I just wanted to be inactive
I just wanted to be quiet
I just wanted to be carefree

I think I was giving a *don't come near me* impression.
But I am all good now...
I hope...
Sorry for being in such a moodygurl yesterday...
Please come near me now... ^_^

Can't stop yawning.

I have been yawning since 6.30am this morning until now 10.15am, and still will be yawning until I leave work place today, and will definitely be yawning until I reach home and sleep tonight.

I AM SO UCKIN SLEEPY~!!!!

Today is so not my day.

LATE
I woke up an hour later, coz I turned off my ringing alarm clockSSS at 6.00am.
I bothered not to take shower and made a quick change so to catch my usual train.
I was few minutes late for my usual train, and thought I was ok to handle the late few minutes.

BUT

There was no train travelling from Dandenong to Caufield due to the lightning and thunderstorm that struck yesterday night, breaking the blardy connecting line for trains.

SO

Had to catch public bus from Clayton to Glen Waverley, which took everyone a blardy 45 minutes to reach the Syndal station and YET missing the next train to the city.

HOWEVER

Waited patiently for another 10 minutes for the next train, which then took everyone another blardy 45 minutes to reach the Flinders Street station.

ANYWAY

Missed the earlier train to reach Austin Hospital. Waited again, patiently, for another 15 minutes for the next train, which took me another 45 minutes to reach Heidelberg station.

BLARDY HELL

A strange mentally-ill man, later got into the same train carriage as mine, took the seat right in front of mine, doing something obscence in front of me. I wasn't looking of course, didn't realize, but after few minutes, I then realized that he was trying to expose his lower self from the window reflection... When he realized that I was ignoring him, he then stood right in front of me, wanted to shake hand with me.... and I was like..... NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~

TERRIFIED

I could see his face clearly when he was coming SO near me. His face was like poppye the sailor man, slightly scarier definitely. My heart was beating like poK poK poK poK poK thousand and one time faster than they usually were.... Nobody said nothing, until a guy behind shouted at him... but after 10 minutes???

FORTUNATELY

And he ran off after the train stopped at the next station.

NOT THE END

The day went slightly smooth at work. Tried to leave later from work just because I reached work place an hour and half later. Had to catch a different train from usual, but thought I could handle it.

SO

Caught the Cranbourne line train from the usual platform 6, and as written on the computer screen was C R A N B O U R N E. Thought was a bit weird when the train was not running express from South Yarra to Caufield, as it stopped at all stations, making me dizzy. Then, the next thing I found was that I have been sitting in a Frankston line train, heading a wrong destination.

THEREFORE

Had to jump out of the train, just to catch another train back to Caufield station, ran from Platform 1 to Platform 4, in order to catch my next coming in 1 minute Pakenham line train.

FINALLY

I managed to jump into the correct, desired, wanted train, and reached Clayton station alas.....

CONCLUSION

I am speechless and having bad headache.

No.

No, No, No....
Nothing....
Nobody....
None....

No goals, No expections, No interest.
Nothing to look forward to.
Nobody to talk to.
None.

No feel, No taste, No view.
Nothing to think about.
Nobody to listen to.
None.

NO.

I want to sleep in my room on my bed
And bother nothing
Sees nobody
Make NO thinking.