Sleep? No?

Why,
whenever I want to sleep, I just don't wanna go to sleep?

Why,
whenever I feel like going to bed, I so don't wanna go to bed?

Why,
don't I wanna go to bed?

Coz,
I am scared of bedbugs?
I am afraid that bedbugs will bite me?
I feel too lonesome to go to bed?
I feel too scared to go to sleep?
I have yet to listen to bedtime stories?
I have yet to finish the task for the day?
I wanna be naughty and stay late?
I wanna be cool and don't wanna sleep?

Don't,
I scared that tomorrow will be overslept?
I scared that I will have dark dark eyebags?
I scared that it will affect my health?
I scared that I will be sleepy tomorrow at work?

No,
I don't care......

Reason

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

Broken

i wanted you to know
i love the way you laugh
i wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
i keep your photograph
i know it serves me well
i wanna hold you high and steal your pain

`cause i`m broken when i`m lonesome
and i don`t feel right when you`re gone away

the worst is over now
and we can breathe again
i wanna hold u high and steal your pain
there`s so much left to learn
& no one left to fight
i wanna hold u high & steal your pain

`cause im broken when im open
and i dont feel like i am strong enough
`cause im broken when im lonesome
and i dont feel right when you`re gone away

`cause im broken when im open
and i dont feel like i am strong enough
`cause im broken when im lonesome
and i dont feel right when you`re gone away

`cause im broken when im lonesome
and i dont feel light when you`re gone away

Sad movies make me cry

I am Sam
Million Dollar Baby
The Notebook
Armageddon

Love Letter
Autumn in My Heart
Winter Sonata
Summer Scent

Patience.....

Patience, is usually not long lasting......one year is max.
Patience, is like an elastic string, will stretch only to a certain extent.
Patience, is not to be fiddle with, no matter how flexible it is.
Patience, when to an extreme will lead to intolerance.

I want to go home.

Life is just miserable....

Ambiguous
Boring
Complicated, Confusing & Challenging
Demanding
Erroneous
Fishy
Green
Helpless
Intricate
Jarring
Knotty
Lifeless
Monotonous
Neutral
Obscure
Pressure, Paradoxical & Puzzling
Qualms
Random
Sucky
Tough & Tiresome
Uncertain, Unforeseeable and Unpredictable
Vague
Wishy-washy & Worries

Sighzzz..............Headache

Every woman

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...one old love she can imagine going back to..and one who reminds her how far she has come...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...enough money within her control to move out and rent a place of her own even if she never wants to or needs to...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD HAVE..something perfect to wear if the employer or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD HAVE..a youth she's content to leave behind...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...a past juicy enough that she's looking forward to retelling it in her old age...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD HAVE..one friend who always makes her laugh... and one who lets her cry...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems, and a recipe for a meal that will make her guests feel honored..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...a feeling of control over her destiny...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..how to fall in love without losing herself...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW.....how to quit a job, break up with a lover,and confront a friend without ruining the friendship...and how to change a tire!!!!!!!

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW......when to try harder... and when to walk away...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW......that she can't change the length of her calves, the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW......that her childhood may not have been perfect...but its over...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW......what she would and wouldn't do for love or more...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW.....how to live alone... even if she doesn't like it...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW......whom she can trust, whom she can't, and why she shouldn't take it personally...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW.....where to go...be it to her best friend's kitchen table..or a charming inn in the woods...when her soul needs soothing...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW.....what she can and can't accomplish in a day..a month...and a year...

Xing Thai Ruan

Ni cong shi xing thai ruan, xing thai ruan,
Ba chi yi ke ren liu lei tao tien liang,
Ni wu yuen wu hui, te ai ching tao ke ren,
Wo ji tao ni kem pen mei na me jien chiang,

Ni cong shi xing thai ruan, xing thai ruan,
Ba shuo you wen thi tou ji chi khang,
Xiang ai cong shi jien tan, xiang chu tai nan,
Bu shi ni te jiu bie cai mien chiang,

Wei she me ni hai bu xiang shui,
Ni hai cai xiang je ta ma,
Ni che yang ji ching tao ti lei bu lei,
Ming ji tha bu hui hui lai an wei,

Ji bu guo xiang hao hao ai yi ge ren,
Ke shi ta wu fa kei ni man fen,
Tuo yi ge shi shen ta bu tong shing ten,
Ni ying gai bu hui ji shiang chuo ge hao ren,

Ooo shuan ler ba,
Jiu je yang shuan liao ba,
Kai fang, jiu fang
Cai xiang ye mei you yiu,

Sha sha ten dai,
Ta ye bu hui hui lai,
Ni cong kai wei ji chi xiang xiang hui lai,

Ni cong shi xing thai ruan, xing thai ruan,
Ba chi yi ke ren liu lei tao tien liang,
Ni wu yuen wu huei, te ai ching tao ke ren,
Wo chi tao ni kem pen mei na me jien chiang,

Ni cong shi xing tai ruan, xing thai ruan,
Ba shuo you wen thi tou ji chi khang,
Xiang ai cong shi jien tan, xiang chu thai nan,
Bu shi ni te jiu bie cai mien chiang.

Sobs.....me hand got burnt

Sobs....me hand got burnt, me hand got burnt by the stoopid heater chilli used to heat up the food or to keep the food warm.
No, me didn't know that the metal plate was hot at all that it could, actually burn me hand......But yes, the metal plate was indeed damn hot that it was capable of leaving a burning mark on me hand.........An obvious burning mark.........sobzzz.

Fat chance....

After few days, weeks, months and years of buying daily ticket, I finally realized that monthly ticket would save me some bucks...and i meant SOME bucks.......Starting from today, buying monthly ticket would secure me from being stupidly stopped by the supid inspectors......and I sooo don't stupid care whether I will stupidly use the ticket even though I don't need the stupid ticket, as long as I don't being stupidly fined by the stupid aus law anymore....Fat chance....Damn the stupid law.

Future?

My usual dilema.....changes in mind, changes in decisions, changes in aims, changes in determination, changes in perserverance = GOALLESS

To do or not to do:
1. PhD
2. RA
3. Gamsat

So wanna do:
1. Go Home
2. Travel to find koko or er cia
3. Learn Chinese, Japanese, Korean Languages and Culture
4. Play piano

Must do now: SLEEP

Back from holiday

He came by today, to take back his books. He came by today, and gave me my photos. He came by today, and gave me my favourite food. He came by today, and we talked for approximately half an hour.
I am tryin hard to be normal. I hope our friendship would be back to normal. I hope he will understand.

Do you know?

Do you know,
how much it means to me,
and it really means a lot to me,
but it makes me weak all over again,
when I have tried so long and hard to be strong.

Do you know,
how much it makes me think,
and how confuse I became,
but all I want is,
for you to be happy, happy, and forever happy.

Do you know,
how much I wish it will come true,
and how happy I shall be,
but would you be happy and contented,
is what I really care utmost.

aPpy bIrtHdaY maMmY.....

Chu ni shen ji khuai ler, chu ni shen jin khuai ler, chu ni shen ji khuai ler er, chu ni shen ji khuai lerrrr....yey!!! hip hip! hooraY! hip hip! hooray!!!
Chu mama.......shen thi jien khang, wan shi ru yi, xing xing fu fu......bu bu gao shen.....somemore? forgotten how to say dee....In short, good health, happiness and prosperity.....All in one. Happy Birthday!
Love you mammy.......