Dearest PoPo.

情爱的婆婆，加以把~！

我好想你，亲你健康迟来。

Randomness...

You felt the pain, but you ignored it.
You felt the love, but you submerged it.
You felt the urge, but you'd subdued it.
You were caught off guard, but you quickly composed yourself well enough to mask it.

"Such is life" - Ned Kelly

Two years.

It's been two years now since tacia's left us. I'd be lying if I say I haven't missed her dearly.....how would anyone who'd known her well before not missed her?? Until today, I'm sure everyone in the family is still mourning over her "departure". The thoughts/experiences of not having her around during family celebrations, discussions/affairs, usual activities and outings were just so painful that we had to bury the heartache away and overwhelmed ourselves with busy routines. I wonder how mama and popo did it, since all they've been having to do everyday was to stay at home and face the reality with so much past time. They must be so strong......so strong. I'd be really silly if I were to ask, because that will do nothing but make them weep. Furthermore, I gather they must've been just wearing a mask to tell people that everything's fine and cool.........Whereas, I know papa's still battling through extremely hard, and he's barely relaxed at all. I definitely understand what they are going through, but what is there for me to do to ease their sorrows???

If you're not tough, don't try to act one.

Tenancy application

I wish I would be granted this unit that I applied for =)

Who would have thought.

A man who claimed he's 31y/o when later found out he's supposed to be 53y/o.
A man who professed that he was in love, yet he backbit and castigated the person he was supposed to "love".
A man who postulated himself as super wealthy but he couldn't even tell his "partner" where he was staying and being ultra secretive.
A man who appeared to have an intention to breach the friendship of his "partner" and "partner's" goodfriend, just so that he could manipulate both women.
A man who pretended to be a gentleman and knew his way of "garnishing" women with his sweet talk.

A dangerous con man who's full of shit.

Who would've thought.

Home

The feeling of being back at home-sweet-home is just great. What else do I need, other than that simplicity, the security, the freedom, those memories, the smiles, the genuine love/care and the selflessness that radiates from every member of the family? They, who would sarifice anything just for you, for your happiness, for your safety, for your health and for your success. They, who keep praying and wishing that you'll be happy, you'll be safe, you'll be healthy and you'll be successful. They, who will be overjoyed when you are happy, whom will be sad when you are upset, and most worried when you are confused. Indeed, home is just like a complete shell that shelters you from any possible threats or harm, a niche for you to seek for comfort or strength and the bona fide.

NO?

Seriously, what's wrong with saying NO?
 NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO,
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Why couldn't I just say NO and be very firm with my NO whenever I feel NO???
Why would one like me be so indecisive and soft as tofu???

 Dammit.

Millenium...

2010 started off with two pretty difficult and tricky situations for me to deal/confront with. Howbeit, I'm still optimistic that this year's gonna be an awesome year. That it's gonna be a year of integrity and completeness -unlike in 2009, where at least one thing or something or even someone's missing all the time......
Henceforth, I'd like to think that the year ahead of me now is a good and happy tiger year. Yay.

Notwithstanding, 2009'd given me a lot of fond memories. All those happy moments with the people around me back then, at current and even those who'd visited my life and left, I shall never forget. 2008 was the year I was forced to grow up much more than I'd intended to, having had to brace through so many heart-breaking news which left my family and myself with merely any enthusiasm or gaiety, negligible and nothing but melancholy.

Come what may, since then 2009'd flickered through so dexterously for us without much struggle....
And so will 2010 =)

She, whom I'd always adore.
She, whom I'd always admire.
She, whom I'd always miss and love.
Tacia, Happy New Year~!!!!!