1. Busy with research life.
2. Busy with part time jobs.
3. Can't be bothered.
4. Laziness.
Anyhow, kicking my heavy ass now - to keep track on what I've been/am up to.
Time flies. Already been back home for more than 2 weeks, leaving myself less than two weeks to go before I have to fly back to Melbourne to face the lonely challenging life, again....*sigh*
Nevertheless, its been great so far to be back home, of course. Got to meet up with darling koko and his family, my cute lil nephew, my beloved popo papa and mama, my sweet ercia, my dearest preggy best friend and all my great childhood friends plus college friends. Felt good to get to meet my two elder nephews as well, though they seemed to have changed. Young and innocent they still are, so I have no comments whatsoever for them as long as they are happy and obedient.
Being back home is different this year. There's this mixed feeling of happiness and sadness in me, which I sometimes find it confusing. Looking into the eyes of my father, my mother and my grandmother, I occasionally find it difficult to act cheerful or act as if nothing has ever happened, knowing that deep down they are still very very heart-broken.
Meanwhile, Ewe Lin reckons there's nothing to be grieved about anymore, and I should try to forget the past so that I could move on. I thought I have successfully overcome myself (by working as hard as possible to pass my time while in Melbourne) yet only to realize that I'm ain't as strong as I hoped to be, now being back at home.
Nonetheless, I believe that time will heal, and one day we'll all candidly accept the fact that "tacia" has already settled down happily in another world, whilst my two nephews will soon grow up to be kind-hearted and sophisticated gentlemen as hoped by their beloved mother.
Right, I'll now continue to enjoy my relaxing holiday back home, so that I am fully rejuvenated and charged before having to face the tough life in Melbourne again.
Oh, and hereby I wish all of you a very Happy New Year and that the year of OX will bring you lots and lots of happiness, laughter, success, prosperity and whatever you've dreamt for.
xoxoxo.